An old house, a porch in shadow, some tiles, a faded Arabic decoration, a man seated against a wall, a deserted street, a Mediterranean tree (Charles Clifford's "Alhambra"): this old photo moves me: quite simply that it's there where I'd like to live. This longing touches me deeply, at roots that are unfamiliar to me: the heat of the climate? Mediterranean myth, Appollinism? Defection? Retreat? Anonymity? Nobility? Whatever it may be (regarding myself, my motives, my fantasy), I want to live there, en finesse, a finesse that will never be satisfied by the tourist photograph. For me, landscape photographs (urban or rural) must be habitable, and not visitable. This desire to inhabit, if I observe it closely in myself, is neither oneiric (I am not dreaming of some extravagant site) or empirical (I'm not looking to buy a house from the views of a real-estate agency); it is fantasmatic, relating to a kind of seeing that seems to carry me ahead, towards a utopic time, or to bring me back, I don't know where, inside myself: the double movement that Baudelaire praises in Invitation au voyage and La Vie antérieure. Before these landscapes of predilection, everything takes place as if I were sure of having been there or of going there. Freud says of the maternal body that "there is no other place of which one may say with as much certitude that one has already been there." Such would then be the essence of the landscape (chosen by desire): heimlich, awakening in me the Mother (not in the slightest bit worrisome).
from Camera Lucida




